Isn't it truly amazing that we never grow too old to learn. When I was a child I thought it would be so wonderful to someday get old enough to finish school because then I would know it all and would not have to keep learning.
I've been reading two books that have inspired, helped and healed. One is the book that Becky Povich sent me called "I Wasn't Ready to Say Goodbye" by Noel Brook and the other is one I heard about from my blogger gal pals called "Why My Child Lord?" by Michielle Sullivan which I ordered from the author who had also lost a child from suicide, which I sadly was presented with this week as the cause of death of my son Jake.
I have learned and understand how I can have Joy in my life while not Happy. I cannot be happy that my son has died though I know where he is and am happy for that. I can know Joy and I can receive Peace day by day just by staying in Jesus and praising Him through my loss.
One of my favorite sites is Bing and I can usually find some awesome images there to reflect the way I am feeling on any given day and these are some of the images that speak to the way I feel this morning.
I hope and pray each and every one of you my sisters will experience JOY in your day today! Because each comment you leave me sure add to my Joy~
Love you all,,,,,mizmollye and Punkin too!
oh sweetie I am sorry for the news you learned this week. I know it was so very hard to hear. And yes, is happy where he is, that is for certain, but it does not alleviate your pain.
ReplyDeleteBut yes, you are so right, there can be joy in the midst of pain. For joy and happiness are not always the same thing. Joy comes from a much deeper place.
May you have an abiding joy. And may you find some happiness today too.
Big, big, big hugs to you!!!!
It doesn't matter the how's or the why's. The loss is the same...... Sometimes I think we are better off not knowing for sure.
ReplyDeleteYes, I believe you can have joy when all around you seems to be spinning out of control. There were many before us from Biblical times to current that have experienced joy inspite of unheard of bad.
You are always in my heart & in my prayers....
Love,
Marilyn
{{BIG HUG}}
These are very wise words Mollye, and so true. You are a beautiful soul. Thank you so much for your lovely and kind words on my blog, you are so sensitive and deep to understand my pain ( which can not in any way, be anywhere near as painful as yours) when you have and are going through so much. I really do thank you fot having that much love in you, to be worried about me! Thank you! I do believe there is joy in life, even when sad and unhappy. Thank you for reminding me, I will spend some time meditating on that very thought. Big hugs. Susie xxxxxxxxxx
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Mollye I hurt knowing you had to hear those words this week but am joyful that you are finding the positive in all of it. You remain in my prayers. Hugs!
ReplyDeleteMollye, I'm so sorry to learn more about Jake's death. As I've said in many of my comments, you are such an inspiring and amazing woman. You are stronger than anyone I've ever known, and probably than even you realize about yourself! I'm so glad the book I sent has been so helpful. I just chose in on Amazon, after reading the description and reviews. Joy to you, dear friend!
ReplyDeleteMollye I know you are taking this hard - but he must have been in so much pain. No one can judge anything unless they have walked in his shoes.
ReplyDeleteJoy cometh in the morning.
sandie
Putting my arms around you and giving you a big hug Mollye........I know how deep your pain is but trust your Faith and you will make it through this. Jake was in pain Mollye, pain does things to people. He is now free of this pain and one day you will be together again...:-) Hugs
ReplyDeleteMollye, I'm so very saddened by your pain; but encouraged, too, by your strong Faith consciousness.
ReplyDeleteOnly this evening have I taken time to tour Jake's story - what a wonderful, warming portral!
Hugs,
Myra
Mollye I am sending you gentle hugs.
ReplyDeleteGod Bless you my friend. I am not sure I could go on. You are so strong and I admire you . You certainly have all of our support.
Jake is at peace now. His memory will bring you JOY.
Love You
Patti
Hugs coming to you my friend! Big hugs! Joy to you in the days to come! Praying for your heart to mend!
ReplyDeleteMiz Mollye, I know you are hurting and my prayers are with you. As Marilyn said, the how's and why's don't matter. The loss and the pain are the same. Sending you many, many hugs.
ReplyDeleteHAPPY PINK SATURDAY MIZ MOLLYE AND PUNKIN,
ReplyDeleteI LOVE YOU, I AM HUGGING YOU REAL TIGHT AND I AM SO VERY SORRY FOR THE NEWS YOU HEARD...I DON'T KNOW HOW THEY CAN SAY THAT...WHAT IF IT WAS A BIG, FREAKY ACCIDENT...WELL IT IS NOT GOING TO CHANGE THE DEEP PAIN YOUR WHOLE FAMILY IS EXPERIENCING. BUT A MOTHER'S LOVE RUNS DEEPER THAN THE SOUL AND JUST BECAUSE JAKE IS IN HEAVEN, IT DOESN'T MEAN YOU STOP BEING HIS MOTHER. IT IS A HUGE LOSS. I THINK OF YOU SO MANY TIMES A DAY AND I PRAY FOR YOU CONTINUALLY.
YOU KNOW...PEOPLE TOLD ME, I WAS SO STRONG...JUST LIKE YOU MOLLYE...BUT EVEN A STRONG ROCK WILL CRUMBLE WITH JUST THE SLIGHTEST PRESSURE IN THE WEAKEST PART...DON'T RUSH YOUR SELF MOLLYE. YOU TAKE YOUR TIME AND PRESENT YOUR GRIEF TO JESUS. LET THE HOLY SPIRIT MINISTER TO YOU. REACHING OUT TO OTHER MOTHERS WHO HAVE HAD A CHILD GRADUATE TO HEAVEN IS HEALING TO ME AS THEY HEAL. CALL ME ANY TIME MIZ MOLLYE. I AM A GOOD LISTENER.
YOU ARE SOOOO VERY PRECIOUS AND SO TALENTED AND SO VERY LOVED.
HUGS PRECIOUS FRIEND
SIMPLY DEBBIE
I know your heart did not want to read those word, but as was said above it doesn't matter, it hurts like hell no matter what. God is good and everything is between us and God. No one knows what happens in the last moment. Jake knew Jesus and Jesus held out his hand to him. blessings
ReplyDeleteQMM
Your site is such an uplift.
ReplyDeleteMiss Mollye ~ I wish I had word for you. I've been looking at this screen for 10 minutes and somehow nothing comes into my mind that seems adequate. My heart hurts for you.
ReplyDeleteOh my sweet friend. There are now words to comfort only know that we are all with you as he is with you still.
ReplyDeleteLeann
Dear Mollye, I am sooo sorry that you had to hear those sad words..no one absolutely knows for sure except for Jake and his God. What matters is your love for him and his for you..I love your image of the comfortor and pillow, what a great idea to find images that depict our feelings.
ReplyDeleteMollye, i am sending hugs straight over to you..you are so special! xo and lots of hugs,
Barb